I find it ironic when people tell me to trust God.. and to love Him first, and everything that comes with that.. and then the very same person, tells me I need to be worrying about my future.
I was talking to God about this on my way home from quincy this evening.. and I was trying to determine if I was being cocky in saying.. "I know God will make things happen for me".. I mean, is that being arrogant, if I know I would be screwed over if God wasn't in the equation?
I have total confidence in Him, because every time I turned my back on Him, he always led me back to that narrow path. If my life was a road map, I would look behind me and see all the red dotted lines every which way. But I can be thankful for the wisdom gained, because it is behind me.. forgotten.
So why does.. okay, its my mom and dad.. why do my parents tell me I should worry about my future career and husband and money issues? I am not stupid enough to believe that if I sit and wait I will be okay. I know I have to actually get up and use my 'hands and feet'.. but why worry? Worry has no room for God.
in other news.. the living situation has gotten better. I was pretty homesick for a couple days for springfield and the close-knit community I gained there during spring semester. But I realized the investment I need to make in the people around me.. no matter where that "somewhere" is. The Lord is ever present in my attempts of being a loving daughter and a Godly woman... because for me.. those two things tend to clash.. because when I believe something- i am stubborn and don't like to back down. But it has been working for the last couple days. At least with my mom. My dad is the same way as me though.. really, uber stubborn. Not really sure that egg is ready to be cracked. But prayer is my chisel.
Oh.. i had sinus infection again.. thats why i was coughing so much.. and I have meds now, so I am looking forward to phlegm-free days!
Jeremy and Jordan are getting married on Saturday! I am super stoked for them. I really like weddings, having had to take pictures at about 7, but a lot of times I found them to be cliche' and cheaply done.
But there is something about watching two people who love Christ.. make a commitment with him.. and with each other. How amazing that must be!
Having almost made the mistake of going through with my own cliche' wedding.. I appreciate and cherish such a ceremony so much more.
well.. those are my thoughts for the night..er... morning..
so i will be seeing you on the flip side!
peace, em
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