emotion to the brim

So this weekend has been an amazing experience. I spent most of it just merely listening. I went to the Fuel Retreat and the weekend started out amazingly. We had a hayride and a bonfire and that night some of us laid underneath the night sky watching shooting stars blaze across our vision. I loved being out in the country and seeing the bajillions of stars above me.. it shows me how small I am and how large God is. It reminds me, as big as I think my problems are, they are nothing compared to Christ's grace... He can always fix it.
The next couple days I talked to some of my friends and I heard stories of their past lives and the mistakes they had made.. and how with the blood of Jesus.. it had changed their souls. Wow. I had never expected what they had told me, just because their faith and perseverance was so strong. But They had turned from Saul to Paul by the grace of God. As the day went on and changed into night, we had our final sermon and worship. Mark Moore was the speaker... and I recommend to check him out.. and he was amazing! I felt my own worries began to melt away and turn to guilt until I was overwhelmed into tears. My small "wants" seemed tiny compared to the suffering people in the world who don't even know Jesus. Yet, all I can ever think about is myself.
On returning home I had a long conversation on the phone with one of my good friends who is having some problems, that i had went through months ago. I felt God pouring through me and into the receiver. The next day she texted me and said "today is the first day I feel content and like myself again"... She said she had opened up her bible and let God's word overcome her. How amazing?
I wonder what a doctor or non-believer would have to say to this? How would they explain her sudden mood change if it wasn't for Christ?

So yes.. emotion overload.. But its something I wouldn't change for the world. When you follow Him and trust in His will.. you will rejoice in His amazing power. Sure, I haven't won a million dollars for choosing Him.. but what is money compared to feeling fulfilled deep in your soul? What is money compared to everlasting life in pure bliss? What is money compared to spreading joy and hope into a devastated friend?

wow. there's just no other word for it. I think I need sleep soon. :)