ever faithful

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

It is really cool when I feel God work. Obviously I can't see how He really works, but of what I can feel.. its pretty stinkin' amazing. the more lost I am in His love.. the less pain and loneliness I come across. My days are more beautiful and there is even a song on the evening moon. I know, I know.. you are saying.. "duh.. of course if we Love God then we will be happy."

But I'm talking about something more.. something deeper than just simply loving God. I am talking about becoming one with Him... letting the Holy Spirit fill you up until you couldn't possibly drink another ounce. I am talking about mornings when as I am worshiping- tears stream down my face in wonder. That, that is amazing.

And suddenly all my complaints of sickness, cold weather, singleness, unknown future, impatience, etc... melts away. Because then I realize this love isn't selfish. The Lord constantly whispers in my ear.. "its for the Glory of it all.." and I smile, knowing I am part of a big picture. And something small that I do can have a big impact if I do it in faith and love. And that.. that is true Hope. And then I know God will give me the desires I hope for so patiently. The desires that burn deep within my soul-- the desires that God prepares me for everyday.. a husband.. a family.. And why do I believe this? Because it is His promise.. and I have learned not to take God's word lightly. Christ is 'ever faithful' even when we are not.
That is unconditional love. A love I will never understand but will live till the end of my life trying to grasp.

"the Lord is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all He has made." Psalm 145:13