So with a greater intake of fruit and veggies, and no caffeine.. more sleep.. my body is starting to re-coop. I did take some allergy medicine as well, but I feel physically healthy from the the other things. It is kinda sweet to see the Lord's nature take care of itself... take care of me.
this morning I didn't go out to church. I stayed in and woke up around 8:30 to watch The Crossing over the internet at 9. I love people immensely.. and am an extrovert.. but I love solitude with the Lord just as much.. it is my time to evaluate what is in my mind and heart and compare it to what God has in store for me. I am also cleaning today, because my room was a mess and dirty clothes were filling to the brim. As goofy as this sounds, I try to find the glory in cleaning. I want to do it to honor God.. and so throughout the whole day I am mopping or sweeping, or doing laundry, making my bed and have an ongoing conversation in my mind to my Father.. or simply sing to Him as I am on my knees scrubbing some nastiness off the floor, instead of cursing my roomies. Of course, on that last one.. I did a little bit of both.
So I downloaded some music off of Noise Trade.. of Tyler Lyle.. check him out.. I am into acoustic/folk/christian music lately.. and he is a bit of all that goodness.
This morning, Jerry (preacher at The Crossing) said something very true.
"Worry is having no Faith in God".. it hurts, but its the only truth. If we had faith, we would not worry about our future in Him, or what He has in store for us. And I worry often about not doing enough to find out my career.. worrying about me.
Not only am I not having faith, but I am also being selfish. My life is not about me... as ironic as that is. It is about the Kingdom. So.. as the CSF devotion spoke to me today.. how do I stop being so selfish and wash the feet of others around me? I have found so many times over and over again that when I have 100% faith in Him, and then put others in front of me.. I always see my own path so much clearer. I guess its the Lord's way of keeping us humble and selfless.. in a selfish, wanting world.
Last week was a horrible week for me. I always told others how awesome it was to be an art major.. no pressure.. everything is so easygoing. But I forgot how easily I put my emotions, time and creativity.. myself.. in my work. And how when one teacher slams it-- my world crumbles to the ground. My pride has escalated so high that with a single sentence I plummet to the earth at full speed. But no matter how high I climb.. if I don't have Jesus in it.. I will always fall. So as much as this week was sucky.. very sucky.. I am okay that it happened. The Lord has taught me a lesson in being humble. He showed me a pride I never knew I had until it stabbed me in the heart. He is so stealthy, my God.
I love this life..
i love the spring that is approaching..
I love Easter and the wonderful hope on that glorious day...
I love my Jesus who never forsakes me.
I love my family who stands behind me.
I love my friends, old and new, who push me towards heaven.
I love this life...
3 comments:
Word.
It's so true.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this rainy Palm Sunday
Cleaning is such a beautiful way to show God and to live Him, I think. Most of the time, you clean because you want it clean, but it also affects those around you... They see your humbleness and appreciate it, whether you know that or not. In fact, I'm going to go clean my room, because I want it clean, but also for my roommate because I've been on edge with her and I want to do something for her even if she doesn't care.
Anyways, this whole concept just hit home with where I am today.
I wish you the best in your relations with this new Spring season.
Emily,
I had to smile when you mentioned an art professor shooting you down. On several occasions I have been totally chewed out in front of God and everyone in a critiques...i mean it was totally brutal. Like... I couldn't even sit down the same way in chairs after that butt kicking.
In retrospect, I now appreciate those moments in life. In order for us to grow in any and all regards we must face challenges. It is within adversity that we are forced to grow.
Take it with a grain of salt and never fear critical statements or second guessing in yourself or your work. The ego is a sneaky little thing that can sneak up on anyone. Nothing wrong with a little ego but it is crucial to also maintain a thick skin. I definitely recognize your talent and zest for life and know you will do great things.
It would be my advice to seek out that brutal honesty. Such confrontations while they may be painful initially, are the very things that build who you are...they take you to that next level.
Be well!!
Travis
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