Comfort in the Uncomfortable

I have come to realize.. that when we are comfortable is when our life is at a standstill. God burdens our hearts to be a better friend or daughter or leader or listener... and recognizing that being uncomfortable is a true comfort.. well...that is difficult.

I have also realized how passionate my emotions can be. When I get upset I overload and get bitter...angry... and just have to vent to someone, paper and pen, a blog.. and finally my Lord. He of course sighs and chuckles in that Fatherly way, wrapping His arms around me. He always tells me, "child, why do you cry and fear? Have I not promised you everything your heart desires?"

On the other hand, when I am happy I inflate like a giant helium balloon that bounces from sky scraper to sky scraper until I am flying high in the clouds... far above the world's tiny problems.

And my favorite "mode", I shall call it.. is my thought-provoking mood. It happens a lot after reading something, or after finishing a movie, or ..okay.. anything that makes me look outside of my own head. I like this because its just a time for God and I.. and normally a journal or a computer screen.. to bond.

tonight I watched the Nanny Diaries.. yeah.. its not that deep of a movie, and not my normal pick... But a good movie, nonetheless. The main character... Annie (who became the Nanny) is a girl just graduating college and is being pressured to do something worthwhile with her life- something that makes money and makes her happy. Well.. after running away from that life and becoming a nanny under a rich, snob lady. Annie realizes at the end.. that she has found herself by analyzing a life outside of her own.. and how money really doesn't make anyone happy. It just depends on the time you spend with the ones you love. So Annie chooses a career path that will make her happy.. not the "smart" path, mind you... but one of the heart.



I saw a lot of myself in Annie. She put herself in an uncomfortable situation to find out what she was meant for. She didn't choose the path of luxury and financial safety.

Hmmm... Is it safe enough for all of us to do this? No.. I don't believe so. Annie got lucky. But I do know if Jesus is holding your hand and leading you.. yes.. it is definitely safe enough...

and definitely a true comfort.