A strong wind (From this season in my life)

As the hair whips across my face making small tangles from a breeze, I smile at the early signs of fall. Being in the country surrounded by flat farmland allows the wind to be wild and free. She has no restraints as she races through the open planes.
Some days, I am like the wind.
I usually long for community, structure, responsibility... but other days I desire freedom and openness, not having to explain yourself to people. How strong and beautiful she is in the open land...she grows subdued, even weak, when buildings of worldliness slow her rhythmical pace.
She can barely whisper in this place.
But her Creator knows her soul, her untamed heart that longs to be with Him.
He tells her,
"Just wait. Sometimes your feet will run fast and your laugh will knock down buildings. your heart will overflow with joyful celebration.
But other times, my love, you will wait and practice the patience I have given you through my Spirit. Your wind will calm, but will stir someone's heart towards me in its peaceful state. You won't be worthless, contrary to belief, your life will still have meaning though your eyes are not big enough to see. You only know the now. Even your past begins drifting to gray.
But I, my child, I see things you cannot understand. I see your now, your past and what is to come- it coincides like a painting. There was a beginning and an end, but I see the whole masterpiece finished.. only I knowing which brushstroke happened first.. And only I can see it fully done and also in the making... at the same time.. Do not try to understand My sight, it is too heavy for you my darling. And because I love you, I only gave you the weight of today to work through. I see that you will laugh tomorrow, cry Thursday and fall on your knees on Saturday... And I love every day of you. Whether your wind blazes through valleys of adventure and transformation or it is a faint breath of waiting, today is yours.
It is a gift.
A gift I am allowing you to unwrap one minute at a time.
And how happy I am when you peel back the wrapping and choose to see my face there. When you choose me no matter the joy or pain or apathy you feel. I am more real than feelings. I am more than them because I created them, and I am Lord, God of all creation. Who knows all, yet loves you enough to allow you to choose me daily. Find peace in this, my daughter. Find me in your every day. I am waiting for you. Just say the word..."
She hears the soft love song, from the God of the universe whose heart is broken every minute by every human he has created. He doesn't respond in anger, but responds in love.
She has cheated on her God countless times, ignored Him, laughed in His face... She doesn't deserve such a perfect love. She realizes she would give up any happiness she has known for Him, but He doesn't ask her to suffer- to pay for the crimes she has committed.
"I did that already, through my Son's blood. Do you not remember?
My love is deeper than religion,
stronger than law,
larger than sin,
bigger than your unfaithfulness.
And it is free."
And then the wind caught fire within her heart, swirling madly through her veins and into her soul.
Her smile returns, she remembers the sacrifice of Jesus, and she closes her eyes to imagine such a wreckless and immense love.
She can't.
It is too unfathomable,
too beautiful...
As wild and great as the strong winds that never seem to cease blowing through the plains of her heart.